Tarzan

I suppose that the majority of people probably don't watch American kid movies, but this is one scene I absolutely adored. The heart-related part is at 1:45-ish. (Except her head was on the wrong side)

(Note: this clip is actually in polish, but she says "it's a very nice heartbeat")

I watched this movie recently and it reminded me of what I think is a very primal part of this interest. Before we are born, we hear our mother's heartbeat, it's a sound that makes us feel safe and cared for, as we get older, it becomes a sound that makes us feel connected to others, it reminds us that we are all human and alive. That might sound very strange, but it's really quite comforting to hear the sound that means that someone you love is alive and well.

This scene also reminded me of myself, because I have had several moments when I have felt like doing this exact same thing. Sometimes, when I'm with my boyfriend (which he's used to) and sometimes just around random people. I think for me, it's a way to cope with the numbness that I feel when my depression decides to make my life suck. Sometimes I just feel like I want or need to listen to someone's heartbeat, to kind of bring me back to this world or to tie me down here. I love that it's something like that though, I think that that's one of the things that's going to help me stop self-harming for good.

 Now all I need is a way to listen to my boyfriend's heart in public. Any Ideas? :)