So, I've been a member of HBP since July of 2010, but for many reasons, I chose not to share on chat. About 10 minutes ago, I concluded my second sharing session online. It's really quite an unusual feeling, hearing your heart (I always like to listen when i'm sharing) and knowing that other people can hear it and it's reactions to emotions, exercise, ect.
The first time I shared, I signed into the chat and I was so nervous. I don't know why I was nervous, probably a mix of coffee, excitement, and being scared of getting caught by my mother. I turned on the audio control and noticed that people started listening. I got even more excited as people commented on it.
I shared for about 45 minutes (until my computer started being weird) and it was really an awesome experience.
After sharing, I felt a bit guilty for allowing people I don't know listen to my heart, but after thinking about it more, I felt better about it. My boyfriend did get to hear it before everyone else, which I liked, but also I realized that my heart is no less special because other people have been allowed to enjoy it. If anything, it's a bit more so.
I look forward to sharing again sometime, and although I don't think I'll ever feel quite the same way as I did that first time (in good and bad ways), each share is different and exciting in it's own way.
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