1. The biology class I'm taking this year. I've already looked through the textbook and we're going to be learning about human anatomy this year. I'm really not looking forward to it. I already know that I'm going to have to let somebody take my pulse and sit through at least an hour of the teacher talking about hearts and all of that stuff and I just don't want to do it! I even hate the word heart! I also have no clue what I'm going to do in class because I really can't say the word "heart", like not at all...
2. My heart stopping. I've always found it a bit intriguing, I guess, thinking about my heart just stopping (and thus me dying). Death seems like a strange concept too, on one hand it seems peaceful, but it also just seems kind of weird. I guess there's just something about the fact that the transition between life and death can be so quick that just kind of fascinates me. I'm also really not scared of death, which I suppose is good, although I'm terrified of losing people I love. It's just kind of an odd thing for me to think about, one moment my heart is beating and I'm alive. The next moment, it stops and I'm more or less dead (my physical body is technically dead).
3. The nature of this interest. It's starting to change, but to my surprise, I'm actually getting less interested in the interest. Also, I've found that I am much more interested in cuddling and ear stething than I am in doing an actual examination with a stethoscope or anything that's sexual. I guess it's just another change though, maybe things will change more.
4. The song Better Than Drugs by Skillet. Yes, it says the word "heartbeat" like 10 times, but I just love this song. A Lot.
5. Coffee. Because I love caffeine, way more than I should. My boyfriend says that he worries that I'm going to have a few too many energy drinks and have problems, but I don't think that will happen. I think it's sweet that he cares though. He told me that he cares about my heart and wants to make sure that I'm ok. I find it a bit interesting, but also a little sad, that sometimes he worries about my and my health more than I do.
6. My boyfriend, because I love him to death. And because he's amazing and he's so accepting of this interest, which I love!
Anyway, that's about what I'm thinking, minus some of the scary hell-ish stuff that is my mind. I'm gonna go get some coffee and then probably go to bed, because that's pretty much what I do.
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